15th November 2011 (around 6am)
It is still early in the morning, I'm still sleeping (according to mummy), when someone knocking on the front door. Mummy was holding Ar-Rayyan (age-6days:second son of my little sister Ika) in her arms immediately opened the door to see who is coming. Oh., it is Uncle Mali (he work at the same department with dady). "where is bodidi?" he asking for daddy. "He still in the bathroom, taking shower. why?" mummy replied. "Tell him, Ben is dead this morning" uncle Mali informed. Mummy was shocking and confused, she asked again for sure. "Which Ben?". "Who else ben that we know very much? It is our Ben" uncle mali answered. Mummy still blur. "your not kidding me right?" she said. "Tell bodidi about this and go get yourself ready" uncle mali said and just leaved. Mummy was really shocked and yet starting to cried out loud. She gave Ar-Rayyan to my sist. Ika. She cry and shout to my dad."Hurry up!!! finish your shower faster! Mali said Ben was gone!". Daddy was speachless. He seemed not to believe. Just yesterday he met him at the office, he just looked fine and nothing unusual. Mummy and daddy rushed to Mr Ben house.
same date(around 1pm)
I am still not knowing the news about this morning. I went to the town with my son, Iman. We looked for my sist Ika at mummy's boutique shop. It closed. I called my cousin Melda and ask if they are at her place. And yes they are there. I took a bus and went to Melda's place. Suddenly Ika tell me about it. My reaction: Blur, shocked and speechless. I remembered that only a few days before they celebrated the wedding Party of Mr Ben Daughter at Rasa Ria Hotel, Tanjung Aru. "How?" i asked Ika. " I am not sure but mummy said He was attacked by Fatal Asthma" Ika explained."Oh My God!" I am really sad. I think of daddy at the first place. How is he? How he manage to handle this situation? daddy is the closest worker to him. He is daddy's Boss. Everyday in the working days daddy is with him all day, except, when he had a meeting. I feel sad to dady. Mr Ben is just not a Boss in Daddy's department, but he is the great friend to every worker and every person that know him. He is very kind and generous. He is the heart of his family. He show loved for everybody.
17th November 2011
The funeral of Late Mr. Benihin. I am not attending. I wanted to but mummy said its better that i just stay and look for my son. It is not very good for the small kid to attend the funeral . I know that the event was full of sorrow. I am still thinking about daddy, I am still feel sad for him. I look dady's face is mournful. I didnt see daddy cry. But i know deep down in his heart he is really really sad.
20th November 2011
I used daddy's car and went to the town to buy some groceries. Automatically, the cd will be played accordingly with daddy's setting. Recently play, the chinese song from Teresa Teng. What on earth that he listened to chinese song i said in my heart. After reached at home I heard the same music daddy's played. A siries songs from Teresa Teng. I ask mummy, what mood daddy's in until he listened to Teresa Teng. Mummy said the cd is belong to Late Mr Benihin. At the office their packing and distribute some stuff belong to him. And daddy took the Cd and the picture in the frame of the Late Mr Ben. I feel sorry for daddy. He feel losing. When i listen to this song I feel the memorable of the Great person like daddy's Boss. The unexpected incident. But one thing that i know for sure, we are all only the servant of Allah...we can plan everything but Allah is the Greatest and Allah determines everything...
Condolence to his Family and Friends,
Those we love don't go away, They walk beside us every day, Unseen, unheard, but always near, Still loved, still missed and very dear.
